My last blog post was about starting new things. This one is about being attached to things and the guilt of not letting them go. I’m talking specifically about projects here, but I guess it can be applied to day-to-day life too, to be fair.
For the past 4 years, I’ve been working on a weekly Premier League project where I draw the “funniest”, “strangest” or in this season’s case, “most thought-provoking” moments. I wasn’t going to do it for the 2022/23 season, but I felt like I couldn’t let it go. I needed to do it. Like an urge to itch. About 10 weeks into the season, I lost so much interest in doing it, it ruined it and actually tarnished the original idea. I’ve come to peace with it now, but my problem was that I absolutely hate quitting on stuff half-way through.
It’s not as if it’s an overly popular project that people can’t wait for. No one’s really arsed for it. Not even myself. The funny thing is, I could just give it a rest for next season and restart the following season if I feel up for it, but it’s like a deep feeling of guilt that builds up inside me that I should be doing something, even though I don’t have to (or want to). It’s why I stopped calorie counting. I did it religiously for about 3 years, never missing a day, and it started doing my head in. I missed 3 days when I was on holiday and haven’t tracked a single calorie since. Haven’t regretted it once.
So why do I feel guilt for giving things up even when I know I’ll feel better for doing so? Who fucking knows. Anyway, here’s a couple of highlights from the season so far…
You can see the full project here: https://twitter.com/DreadfullyDrawn/status/1653012954051215361 P.S. I'll probably end up doing the project throughout the 2023/24 season.
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